Fuck everything
2006-12-11 -- 11:28 p.m.

This week has been absolute hell for me. Not only have I felt worthless, depressed, suicidal and miserable... but I have been confused as well.
I can't explain anything anymore. I don't know who I am. I have no friends, I have nobody who REALLY gets me here. Sometimes I make my boyfriend be like my girlfriends but it just doesn't work.
I think alchol will be my best friend this weekend and I hate that feeling. The feeling that being under somethings spell can make me happy. I miss my bulimia, and things have been triggering me. I have been missing cutting, and I have been missing all those things I vowed to never do again.
Whjo fucking knows I have nobody here.
I am alone and that is a fucking horrible feeling. I feel like being alone, and rot in fucking hell.
Fuck everything. My job sucks. I am just ready to be done with everything in my life. End everything. I know alot of people will be happy with that.

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I'm Jori, 20 years old. Search of happiness, and being at peace with myself. Trying to find ways to love life, using writing as my main key.

Loves...
I love those who love me back. I love life for what it is... and what it can be. I love that every day is a new chance for me to make things right again... I love having friends that are there, regardless of where I am... and I love that even when things get tough, I have them to count on in the end.

Hates...
I don't hate, I can't stand the thought of hating people or things. I can say I hate how the life can be when it's hard... and I hate that fairness is only a dream.